This poetry series is a result of the exploration of a young love.
Young love is believing love is possessive. Exploring this love became the foundation for understanding a more mature love. A love of friendship.
I was SO in love with one man, and I felt unheard by him. Certified Lover Girl allowed me to express and hear myself in a time I sought his validation.
Upon reflection, Certified Lover Girl allowed me to see flawed beliefs I held about love.
This series was written over a span of two years (2019-2021). It may seem like a short time, but I was all in. It seems like the man of my dreams had finally entered my space.
One night turned into three years of me being infatuated with a man who couldn’t love me, didn’t love me, didn’t want to? To this day, I don’t know and that’s okay.
I prayed about letting this go. I prayed for my heart, mind, body, and soul to be free from this delusion. I was basking in confusion and grasping for clarity. My brain would hurt, my feelings went unheard, but my body was pleased….
I learned what it means to be possessed by the Spirit of Lust. To be taken over by the physical pleasure of my flesh while having my emotional needs unmet.
But I also learned what it means to choose love. I learned how to choose myself in love.
I was addicted and I just couldn’t get enough of him. I realized my infuation was unmatched and unhealthy.
I came to the realization that I broke my own heart by having expectations with someone I wasn’t mutually committed to.
I am grateful for the man who became my muse. I am grateful for choosing me through it all.
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